Delayed Reaction

God damnit I can't keep to my schedule for even one week. Anywho, consider this Monday's post.

I think I've been overreacting about Outlaw not eating. I talked to the ex about it. She has more experience with kitties than I do. She said she's probably just weirded out by me being gone for a weekend. She also suggested that perhaps Outlaw is stockpiling food in case I take off again. This idea amuses me greatly. I can just imagine what the thoughts in my insane cat's brain must be like.

The date on Saturday with Girl #3 went well. We went to a cool wine bar. It has a very date-ish atmosphere. Low lights, good music, good wine, partly indoors, partly outdoors. Date started at 7:30ish and we talked till almost 11.

She's gorgeous. She's funny. She has interesting things to say. She's intelligent. Oh and she's a giant nerd. We commiserated over the death of Chewbacca in one of the extended universe Star Wars books. She just had finished Vector Prime so the loss was fresh for her.

Apparently, I'm the first "good" guy she's gone out with in a long time. She said she has a long history of dating losers. Guitar players, drummers, pitchers, interesting but generally jerk-like individuals.

Maybe I'm too good of a guy. Example: end of the date essentially. We're standing in a parking lot, again, talking still. I know I want to kiss her. I've been looking for the right moment or whatever. Kept not finding it. So I put on my "lame guy" hat and asked her if it would be ok if I kissed her.....
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Not my smoothest of moves. Anywho, yeah she said it was ok but she giggled and said, "You really are a nice guy." ugh... It's true but I don't want her thinking that. I want her feeling something a bit more visceral. Simple kiss, not much to it. We both knew we were going separate ways at the end of the night so that didn't surprise me. As we walked to her car, she joked I need to get some mojo. Ack! See! It is a problem...maybe problem is too strong a word.

We did talk about seeing each other again soon. She even suggested a place. So maybe I'm overreacting. The problem is I obviously really like her. The more I like someone the more I overanalyze every thought every feeling every action. Besides, I'm trying not to go crazy over someone again so soon/ever.

I'll try to be a bit more smooth next time though. Maybe not rely so much on my Bruce Lee of Dating style... you know.. the game of no game. (Bruce Lee's fighting style is the style of no style..get it?.. ::sigh::)